It seems that I attract alot of nice people....that ends up creeping me out or just gets annoying or ticks me off in the long run. Being too nice and friendly...it's too good to be true. They end up leaving you anyways. That's why people shouldn't have friends. Can't count on them all, you know. They will end up making you more angry and annoyed or they will do something that you regret ever being too nice to them. It just makes me mad. Now I'm not saying this about ALL people. I'm sure one or two will pop up sometime. But I won't know...cuz I refuse to get too close! So fuck them, fuck you, and fuck the world and everything on it.

~Darkness

Currently Listening Kill 'Em All By Metallica see related

It's been a long time, hasn't it? But, who am I talking to anyways.

I'm starting full-time at Lakeside Bank. I'm currently on hold as a student. I won't call myself a dropout, I do plan on going back to school. I'm just poor now...not like I've ever been rich. I love money, it's just that I tend to use it the same day I get it. Bad habit. I do miss school. I miss Columbia. I miss hanging with my friends after class and talk about how boring or awesome it was. I miss being in the pencil test room looking at...um...pencil tests. I miss animation. I miss film. I miss school. Period. Of course, there's the upside: I don't have homework. Nah, I kinda like it. But I'm just that lazy. Stupid. Lazy. Stupid. I've been happy. Yea. But that doesn't mean there's no more room for sadness.  I haven't been "home" since I moved out. My dad had a heart surgery. But...I just can't bring myself to care. He can die for all I care. But...after all, he's still my father. That's all that's left. The title. It means nothing to me. My mother is still mad at me. I'm sure. I haven't talked to her either. She found out that I'm not in school anymore. Which makes her more mad. I still need to get the rest of my stuff from that house. I just don't wanna step in there. Modeling. Now that's something no one ever thought when they think of me. But here I am. I hope things will get better, back to school, out of debt, make loads of money...I guess hope is all I've got. I wish the world explodes.

~Darkness

No I'm not happy. I'm so sick of everything. Everything.

~Darkness

Still so in love. Yeap, just like this page says: I love you like a fat kid loves cake. Heehee.

TG&TM:72103

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